(I wish I was) a Writer

I wish I was a writer. 
So I could get 
these thoughts;
and this weird pang on my chest
out. 

I wish I was a writer. 
So I could tell people
that I am confused
that I am frustrated
that I am angry
that I am everything but fine
without having to worry 
and think that I am
burdening them.  

I wish I was a writer.
So I could conjure up words
and string them into coherent sentences
that would portray the chaos that is me.

But I'm not.
So I'd have to keep it all to myself.
And wonder when this will all end.